Well what can I say but WOW about the response I got to my post yesterday, and an amazing thank you to all the wonderful friends who wrote such thoughtful and supportive emails and comments to me.
It feels good to have acknowledged things publicly so to speak, but of course now I have to actually start 'doing' whilst reminding myself that Rome wasn't built in a day and my problems and house won't be sorted that quickly either. I will make small steps at a time and acknowledge the progress made. As an often impatient person, and as a teacher once told me, a perfectionist, this is where the difficulties occur and I think why I have often given up in despair.
I spent most of yesterday sorting through a couple of doll boxes, taking photos and listing things on ebay and whilst I think I've made more mess in the process, I have sorted out about 16 assorted dolls to sell and whilst they probably won't sell for much they WILL reduce the debt (or at least going towards paying the interest) AND declutter to some extent. I still have a very long way to go and at first it felt like I had achieved nothing. It is amazing how long it takes to photograph each item and edit the photos. Kendal has been helping me 'look' at my dolls with a new eye and with the process of deciding who is to be re-homed and to view them afresh. Henry was close on hand to support me. :-)
I had to remind myself that I still managed to cook my husband a lunch, do the dishes, fold a basket of washing and even allowed myself a few minutes to go and enjoy my roses. I also managed to do some knitting for the dolls in the evening.
It really looks like it is a beautiful day outside today and I hope that that in itself will bring the inspiration to keep on working at it. I just need to make sure I pace myself as often do too much, end up in more pain and then give up. Little and often...
Well onwards and upwards as they say. I have to continually remind myself to keep going and not give up...it is very difficult this doll addiction as many of you have acknowledged...I'm sure they take on a life of their own at times at tempt us to do their will! ;-)
Thank you again dear friends for your ongoing support.